A delayed return to gratitude this Thanksgiving
How I found my way back to gratitude this Thanksgiving.
fall transitions
Thoughts about this fall.
Returning to a soft landing
Trying to figure out why I returned to the monastery.
Am I Korean? – My latest question as a Chinese Adoptee
This month, I went to the library and asked the librarian to guide me to the “spirituality” section because I’m on this “What is God?” kick. I was immediately drawn to a book called “The Holiness of Doubt: A Journey through the Questions of the Torah” by Rabbi Joshua Hoffman. I’m not Jewish and I’ve …
Meeting my self at an American Zen Buddhist Monastery
I want to beg you, as much as I can, dear sir, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given …
The Summer of Acceptance
The Beginning This summer 2022 started in a fog and a frenzy. I tested positive for COVID-19 (for the first time) in mid-May and it wiped me out. I experienced crippling muscle aches, depression, extreme exhaustion, and congestion for two solid weeks. I lost my appetite and stubbornly resisted the rest that my body needed …
Why I Don’t Like Celebrating my Birthday
Note: I wrote this while listening to BTS’ new album: Proof. 🙂 I’ve had some amazing birthday parties and memories. Bobbing for grapes. The Liberty Science Center. Tamagotchi party favors. Turning 21 with my cousins in NYC. A bonfire in Rwanda. Dancing in Ecuador. Midnight delight cake traditions. As I’ve reflected on what my birthday …
An Act of Love Leads to a Cathartic Cry
On Thursday, at around noon, I collapsed onto my makeshift cot couch and began weeping… crying… heaving. It was finally surfacing and exiting my body. It is so funny because the straw that broke the camel’s back was an act of love. My sweet friend, N, sent me a lovely gift and letter in the …
it was just a kiss – cw: sexual assault
Processing a seemingly small encounter and realizing that it was sexual assault.
Answering Morgan Harper Nichol’s Journal Prompts for the End of 2021
Answering Morgan Harper Nichol’s Journal Prompts for the End of 2021