Trying to figure out why I returned to the monastery.

I want to beg you, as much as I can, dear sir, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given …

The Beginning This summer 2022 started in a fog and a frenzy. I tested positive for COVID-19 (for the first time) in mid-May and it wiped me out. I experienced crippling muscle aches, depression, extreme exhaustion, and congestion for two solid weeks. I lost my appetite and stubbornly resisted the rest that my body needed …